Yesterday you turned 6.
Such a bitter pill to swallow... I seriously struggle with the fact that you and L and C have aged years in what literally seems like the blink of an eye...
Here's what I know... my heart aches thinking of all of the joys you have brought to my life... and it aches whenever you ask me to call you baby... it aches when you wake up in the middle of the night because of a bad dream and need to fall back to sleep in my arms... my heart aches knowing a day will come when I won't be able to carry you around anymore... my heart aches for reasons only a Mommy and Daddy can understand...
I also know this... you joined our growing little family seemlessly, like that spot was reserved just for you... you had a best friend before you were even a thought and you had a Mommy and Daddy who couldn't wait to meet you and love you... You came to us so fast that we barely had time to get settled in our hospital room... and before I could have a coherent thought you were there in my arms... from that day on, my already bursting heart was again stretched immeasurably...
Here you are, 6 years later, a big boy who insists that Mommy and Daddy always call him baby... a big boy who looks up to and idolizes his big brother and best friend and who smothers his baby sister with more love than she can tolerate... Here you are, 6 years later, and I never thought I could love you more than the day you were placed in my arms... but I do... everyday you amaze me and I find myself falling in love again and again and again...
Happy Birthday, Squishy Boots... we're so very proud that you chose us to be your family... have a wonderful 6th year! ;) xoxoxo
:,-( I know EXACTLY how you feel, today is my little guy's 6 birthday too!!! Mine insists on my not calling him a baby though. It's so hard to let go of the baby years, but if we don't we miss the next stage, which can be just as wonderful but different... life does not wait for us to be ready. I am struggling, but I know that I'm doing the best I can for him and his sister, and that they are growing up in love and laughter... and that makes me happy. I also am thankful for this adventure.
ReplyDeleteHow very true, time goes soooo fast, and it is nice to stop and truly be thankful for all that you have and all the good in your life, children, family, love, laughter, health, etc.etc!
ReplyDeleteBecky