So, it's been a while... a long while.
I've taken a bit of a mental break. A much needed break.
While I love this little space, it does take much effort and time to keep up. I guess I went through a sort of burnout.
I LOVE CRAFTING, THRIFTING, RE-CREATING, YOU-NAME-IT... but, it all takes time. And when you have 3 littles under foot, you just need to put some things into perspective. Family first. Family FIRST.
Don't get me wrong... I've never struggled with priorities. Anyone who knows me, knows that I put my children and husband first and everything else falls into place after that.... and me? Well, I'm usually last on that list. That is, until 2 months ago. I realized that if I didn't start putting ME a little higher on that list, then all else in my life would start to failing.
My girl-babe is starting school in the fall. Oh. My. I don't even want to think about it. My whole life, I feel, was formed, shaped, guided-by-fate to be a mom. And I know I'll always be a mom to these 3 little wonders; but, in all honesty - I am the woman who could have been a mom to TEN little wonders.
But, my resolve...
My resolve...
I know I can only have three.... and my time to be the full-on-full-time mom is coming to an end.
I needed to take stock. Put ME first.
Holy Crap! Did I just say 'Put ME first'?
I did. And, I have.
Time to reclaim this body of mine.... time to think of what I want out of this life (aside from the obvious - my family).
I've joined the gym. Working with a trainer who is amply qualified to kick my A**! And - I'M LOVING IT! I. LOVE. IT.
I am a consultant for an AMAZING direct sales company which I believe in WHOLEHEARTEDLY!
And, when September finally comes, which I know, inevitably, it will. I will have some free time to fill with another Mom-preneurial side business.... but, until then....
Drink in EVERY. SINGLE. MOMENT I have left with this sweet little lady and her brothers... I cannot miss a thing. I owe it to her, I owe it to her brothers. And most of all, I deserve - DESERVE - to relish every second while I can - while they'll still let me.
I had the best compliment a mom could get yesterday on Mother's Day...
'My mom is as special as LEGO.'
I love my life... what else can I say?
Happy Belated Mother's Day. **Miss you B ((((HUGS))))**
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Monday, May 14, 2012
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Well put Julie. I'm facing similar thoughts with Isabelle going to Gr.1 and Alex turning 8.. my babies ain't babies no more... it's so bittersweet but we must keep up or be left behind. I too have started reclaiming me, I will continue to work in a way that supports our family best (my daycare) and allows me to be the best I can for us.. Big hugs to you, nobody would ever doubt your priorities for a second.. EVER. I miss her too.. xoxoxox
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